July 23, 2016

It's 12:30 am....WOW is July 23 finally over. Today was very tough. I use tough because I had several up and down moments.

 I'll start by saying ( to my young viewers) transitioning from high school to college is no easy task. EVERYTHING is in order for me, I literally made sure I was on my A game senior year so I wouldn't be a stressed out college student.  Yet, STILL I am here.  This is showing me money is not everything. I have a full ride to Michigan state university and I am highly blessed that I will not have to take out loans for school. With that all said I am still not necessarily "happy". Life takes me through loops and NO I'm not perfect . I do not want to sound greedy to my viewers or even weak. Dealing with a job and disrespect from employers, a different type of family who never had to do a transition like this , people who don't understand me, being single& letting go of someone who you once loved, handeling social media and expectations of my blog/viewers, and still trying to be sane and at peace. ITS. HARD! I remember thinking my first heart break was hard, like no that was not nothing compared to this feeling. Oh my g*ddddd. Hmmmm, I can smell overwhelmed right now. That's why I don't blog as much as I would like too, sometimes I feel like my 24 hours are harder than others. I know college will  be my start of a new life mentally, physically, and financially. I am starting my Vlog and YouTube channel. So I will have more to juggle with in my 24 hours. I just feel like when you're young and life is really being thrown on your shoulders all while still telling your self " YOU'RE YOUNG"... It is very stressful. 

TIPS to myself : Pray, use journal, confine in a good friend or mate, be calm...It'll work out.....

Let's try again tomorrow