Womanhood

Every once or twice a month God reminds me the nature of my women hood. It's usually earlier in the month, I'll get very emotional. I'm the kind of person who is always thinking positive, but around this time you can find me crying about all the negative things. I'll hurt my finger or something silly and cry about it. I'll stay in my own bubble and not speak to any one— I'm very bubbly and goofy ...usually. I'll be evil to everyone and careless about other people's emotions. I actually turn very self centered and I'm a total bitch. I call this my PRE-Shift, because it's only the beginning of my woman week and I'm always confused as to why I'm so emotional. Then the next morning I find out..

   I'm a natural person. I love my body and all of my natural characteristics. Including my menstrual cycle and hurmonal changes that prepare my uterus for pregnancy. I could never picture myself taking pills or getting shots to alter the way God designed me. I want to have healthy children one day. I want to be able to explain to my husband the nature of my body and I want him to except that this is the way I am designed to function so that one day He could fertalize our seed. My body , like most women, goes through this monthly flush. Some of the old blood that runs through my veins gets flushed and I redevelop. Did you know the first day our level of estrogen is very weak. At the beginning a hormone is developed and it is made in your brain. Over the days it starts to build and grow. I see this as my four day reincarnation. The first few days are usually my worst because my body causes my wombs to actively shed the lining from my last cycle and the pain HURTS! My body feels weak and unstable in these few days. I start to eat over my capacity because my body can control reconstruction and my hormones are jumping like a kid who just ate chocolate cake. I am sad during this process but I know it's a beautiful thing. The reason our seeds are being flushed every month is because as women we produce a very large amount of blood, just in case, we reproduce an off spring that month we will have a good amount to store for their development.  That is why women who are pregnant do not have their cycles, they are providing blood for an offspring. Which is the most beautiful thing. Every organ in your body has a peice of your mother in it. God had a crazy way of working when he decided to create this "Cycle". 

    The fifth day is when I feel beautiful. I crave water and natural foods this day. I smile and welcome everyone. I feel like I have been reborn. I am clean and my skin is glowing, naturally. I am thankful for my monthly cleanse and all the pain is now worth it. I am a woman and Every month my ovaries are flushed and I am reborn.